In Loving Memory of My Brother

Haji

1954-1992

As I stood there and watched you die,

I couldn't help but wonder why?

How someone so sweet, gentle, and kindcould die so young..

At times it seemed we were almost one.

I'd known you all of my life...

And not to have you here is cuttting into my heart like a knife.

When mama called to to tell me that day...

I couldn't rush fast enough to your aide.

Throughout the time I cared for you...

I kept asking God to cure you.

I miss you terribly and want you back so bad...

I'ts so unfair, and the pain and loss are so great, I keep feeling

I should have died instead of you...and more times than not I wish I had.

...1992

There is nothing -- no circumstance, no trouble, no testing that can ever

touch me until first of all it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me.

If it has come that far it has come with a great purpose, which I many not

understand at the moment. But as I lift up my eyes to Him and accept it as coming

from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow

will ever disarm me, no circumstances will cause me to fret, for i shall rest in the joy of

what my Lord is. That is the rest of victory.

... Haji

Haji, we your family, friends and loved ones miss you dearly.